Disillusionment And The Scary Book

Disillusionment is a dreaded word which we always try to avoid. It is like an illustrated scary book I had when I was very young. I didn't wanted to get rid of it neither I wanted to keep it within my eyesight! So what did I did with it? I hid it under my mattress and soon forgot about it. I wanted to keep the book as it scared me; a feeling that challenged me as well as gave me kicks! But it was a feeling I wouldn't like to be reminded of too often. I am not sure if disillusionment gives me kicks but it certainly challenges me.

This is the same perplexing relationship we have with disillusionment. It scares the living daylight out of me. It dissolves all the hope and life feels like a boat without oars. If carried on for too long disillusionment is the "stepping stone" to depression. But there is an other side to it as well.

Disillusionment gives a unique opportunity to contemplate on things we may never have taken a time out for. It is a self-realization tool that could be effective to search for truth inside us. Because life is too fast most of the times and disillusionment slows us down a bit.

To think "straight" for a moment, following I feel would help me in dealing with it:

• Releasing myself of the feeling of that I am in control of my life.
• Taking some time to really listen to myself.
• While listening asking a few questions as well.
• Not jumping to conclusions but letting the answers come to me. (Patience is a virtue!)

Contemplating not dwelling will lead to useful answers. Once the answers have taken a shape you can slightly identify with just have the confidence in yourself and go for it. Would love to hear others' thoughts on this.